Work doesn't love you

"SAYONARA," was the line he said as he entered the room after his review. My eyes suddenly awaken from a faded conversation of my two colleagues. 

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"It's my last day," he replied. 

It was just in that brief reply I knew what he meant, he has failed his probation period and was told to leave. I could hear my heart cracked - not just because of the sudden and abrupt news, but also because I knew what he must've felt the moment when the management team broke the news. 

In my last job, I was told to resign instead of waiting for a termination letter, although I didn't do anything to fail my KPIs neither was I underperforming. The overwhelming fall of economy in Brunei had led to their decision to drop my project, and along with it, me. Then the incredible struggle of getting back on my feet is definitely not something I would wish to go through again. 

I was recently asked whether we should hire an experienced or a more committed and loyal person? Of course, I opted for experienced but then do we have the financial capability to hire someone like that? The issue with hiring the latter is that, are loyal and committed employees appreciated enough that if they are not performing as expected, what are the chances that they would be given an opportunity to make the extra effort to improve or be given enough trainings and guidelines to help them through? 

So maybe you're talented, but because you're new, you find it hard to get some tasks done correctly or in the way that they wanted , and then you're too afraid to speak up - sacking you out is just as easy as saying "it's time to leave." How many companies are there that actually love their employees, and not just the profit they make? Well I can't say because I don't know enough but isn't there a pattern? That there will always be some kind of favoritism, or bias treatment, or seniors assuming that you would already know everything? 

We don't know everything, 

I've had my fair share of being in the middle management, and it sucks. When it's your bosses' fault, it's your fault, and when it's your subordinates' fault, it's your fault. Basically you get blamed for almost everything and it can destroy you. I made a mistake of just taking everything in and eventually losing myself in these thoughts of lack of self-confidence and feeling incompetent. I was unable to communicate my thoughts and feelings, and that's how I lost my job because I didn't stand up for myself. 

I like working, it keeps me sane but I crave a career that will let me bloom and actually be happy doing it. I know I haven't found it yet, and I believe it can be achieved that I shouldn't just be stuck at a place where I see no advancement or am not proud of. I want to be proud of what I do and I want to feel satisfied doing it. Maybe I'd fall again, but it will only teach me to get back up again. And maybe you'd fall, or maybe you haven't reached the ground - but whatever it is, only because they're your seniors, doesn't mean they can always be right about you. 

I hope he finds a better place that believes in his talent and work, a place where people won't undermine his ability to work and improve. And I'm glad he got out sooner, it's always better when you hurry the hurt than let the pain be more painful than it should be. Good luck friend.