Whole

You opened me up, let me see what's inside of me and then walked away. It's hard to stitch everything together by myself, and I was confusing all those pains for love. 

Meeting you was probably one of the things I wish I could undo but you taught me a much greater lesson I never knew I needed. I spent years trying to understand how I could feel so immensely intense for someone I only knew for a few months. I was infatuated and in love with the idea of you. 

And then I woke up one day, feeling absolutely nothing. I tried forcing myself to think about you, but all the amount of unresolved feelings that I had for you disappeared. I was surprised and relieved because now I am whole again. I stopped giving lights to memories of you, and that was the best decision I've ever made. 

I don't hate you, nor do I love you. And now you're just one of the people in the crowd.